After all that I forgot even what I thought I did in the first place, And I tell myself that if I am doing all of that then I care about it, and then I think about it and that it's possible to just go on with my life without stressing about all of this... and then when I die I'll go to hell and burn forever... and then at the same time I don't want to constantly freak out about it and live my entire life in fear of going to hell... My Parents are
Atheists and say that I should just live my life without
worrying about it and being nice to people and being an overall good person, and I'm not old enough to go to church,
so I just repent quietly in my room, Perhaps when I was younger I have sworn to god on things that may or may not have been true, and then I repeat those things in my head, and I would get scared.