She literally went through
the birth process again.
Although this is my second birth, it's nice to be reminded of the after -
birth process again.
Not exact matches
The one exception
again is that mystery of procreation where I think the creative human
process approaches most closely to the divine (classically understood) in all of us; viz., in
birth there is an extant element of ex nihilo gifted to us by God
We are told of the fullness and the Second Coming, but of the nature of these things and their relation to the historical
process we have no idea whatever: In the only sense that our imaginations can grasp, the task starts all over
again with every baptism, every
birth, and reaches its eschatological consummation on every deathbed.
i got in the shower & let the water meet my tears & something within me said - «this is the
process sokhna, open to the
process, open to the
process»... that was the light... my mantra became «this is the
process», & i returned to the bedroom... maria took my hands, looked me in the eyes & said «this is the
process, sokhna...» i knew i was on my way... i rocked, squatted & allowed... maria checked me
again & i was softening enough for maria to open the cervix the rest of the way... soon enough maria had massaged the cervix completely open & she told me to push... when she said this i filled with brilliance - i wanted to push, i wanted to feel it, i wanted to see wayana... in just a few pushes wayana kamalah lioneye ra was born - i held her as she came out - i looked at this little one & she looked at me & i told her i was her mother... kayenn came over & i saw a baby in him... this natural
birth birthed my heart... i suddenly knew what kayenn needed, what i needed & what wayana would need... the placenta came soon after & maria helped me to bed... i really just wanted to look at my 2 babies - to stand over them & beam light, gratitude & promises of infinite love & support... i wanted a natural
birth, i had a natural
birth & it continues to this day... i am writing my
birth story on wayana's 15 month celebration...
It's important for mothers to fully
process their experience, not only for their own emotional health but also for their bond with baby, so their Cesarean
birth story can be beautifully retold,
again and
again:
around midnight i began to question my decision to have a home
birth, & maria was getting tired... she called in a second midwife for support & my doula arrived from another
birth... i was afraid of the power - i hadn't felt it like this in kayenn's
birth... i was afraid that i would come apart - even though i had to - i know now that coming apart is a part of the
process... someplace in the middle of this
birth i realized that i did not know how to do this - i was acting against the
birth process - literally & emotionally... i had a mental idea of what it should look, sound, smell, be like... after some hours maria checked me
again, i had been at 9 cm for 4 hours... she said to me, «some babies can come through at 9 cm, but yours will not, sokhna... sokhna, you are going to have to fight to bring this baby out... go into the bathroom, get in the shower & work it out... «so i did... i went in the cold bathroom alone & remembered every cold detail of kayenn's
birth... i wondered if i could get to the hospital on time to have an emergency c - section & i began to cry... & as i cried i had to go to the bathroom - i sat on the toilet & the rushes came down like nothing i can explain - but they didn't hurt - it was just POWER!
And I think,
again, I see the model practice as one that gives the woman the greatest number of choices, a model practice where you actually have the time and the capacity on the patient's part to understand the risks and benefits of each of the subsequent choices to have a relatively smooth system, which can transfer from one model of
birth to another without extensive delays and then — and so I think giving the mom the greatest number of choices and having midwives and physicians speaking to each other at the time of either the initial patient's choice for method of delivery or at the beginning of the labor
process.
The good news is that most of the time mom's body is able to
process sugar correctly
again after giving
birth to the baby.
Thanks for sharing your story I had a nice and easy pregnancy and
birth with my first son, yo yoo come the second pregnancy ok it was not bad but the
birth oh God 15 hours in pain my water never broke I just see blood coming out and here it's come the pushing oh God the baby hurt me badly that I have to get the stitching inside there feeling the niddle down there was a extremely painful and I was screaming all the way through the
process and now am pregnant
again first few weeks was not easy At all but now a moment my second trimesters and am praying for easy
birth God help me
I'll tell you one thing, unless I already have found a
birth mother match before starting the
process, I will NOT use an attorney
again.