I now began to be
esteemed in young
company, who knew nothing of my mind all this while, and their
esteem began to be a snare to my soul, for I soon began to be fond of carnal mirth, though I still flattered myself that if I did not get drunk, nor curse, nor swear, there would be no sin in frolicking and carnal mirth, and I thought God would indulge young people with some (what I
called simple or civil) recreation.