For some homosexual persons, the effort to change can mean years
of individual and group therapy, agonized prayers, suicidal depressions, and the
constant fear of detection, loss
of job and
attack by straight men.
Constant fear of going to bed as a child, (afraid of those images that appear in the mind when the lights go out), deep anxiety as a teenager, no sleep on the last two years of highschool because of horrific nightly nightmares, ocasional panic attacks as an adult with constant stress, and finally, unconcious, uncontrolable grinding of teeth when daytime life seems less st
Constant fear of going to bed as a child, (afraid
of those images that appear in the mind when the lights go out), deep anxiety as a teenager, no sleep on the last two years
of highschool because
of horrific nightly nightmares, ocasional panic
attacks as an adult with
constant stress, and finally, unconcious, uncontrolable grinding of teeth when daytime life seems less st
constant stress, and finally, unconcious, uncontrolable grinding
of teeth when daytime life seems less stressful.
In my academic life, I had panic
attacks over homework assignments and was beset by a
constant fear of reading out loud in class.