I insisted that I was doing this more because of how I felt rather
than how I looked, but during my cleanses — when my partner would beg me to eat
solid food after nearly fainting in the living room, when I'd be constantly thinking of
food because I wasn't allowing myself to eat it, when I turned
down social plans because I wasn't eating anything more
than smoothies that night — I was focused on loose clothes, not how awesome it felt to feel weak and hungry.