I still kept a round of duties, and would not suffer myself to run into any open vices, and so got along very well in time of health and prosperity, but
when I was distressed or threatened by sickness, death, or heavy storms of thunder, my religion would not do, and I found there was something wanting, and would begin to repent my going so much to frolics, but
when the distress was over, the devil and my own wicked heart, with the solicitations of my associates, and my fondness for young company, were such strong allurements, I would again give way, and thus I got to be very wild and rude, at the same time kept up my rounds of secret prayer and reading; but God, not willing I should destroy myself, still followed me with his calls, and moved with such power upon my
conscience, that I could not satisfy myself with my diversions, and in the midst of my mirth sometimes would have such a sense of my lost and undone condition, that I would wish myself from the company, and after it was over,
when I went home, would make many promises that I would attend no more on these frolics, and would beg forgiveness for hours and hours; but
when I came to have the temptation again, I would give way: no sooner would I hear the music and drink a glass of wine, but I would find my mind elevated and soon proceed to any sort of merriment or diversion, that I thought was not debauched or openly vicious; but
when I returned from my carnal mirth I felt as
guilty as ever, and could sometimes not close my eyes for some hours after I had gone to my bed.
In refusing to convict Penn, the jurors refused to enforce what they knew to be unjust law, even
when directed by the judge to return a
Guilty verdict, and even
when imprisoned for their act of
conscience.