But it also means there's none
of the mind - melding brain - fog
of ecstatic sleeplessness overlayed by the
irrational fear that a bird is going to
fly in through the window and take the baby hostage *, along with the never - ending ride on the hair - raising postnatal emotional rollercoaster, with happy joy followed with the deep panic that you have no idea what you're doing and are going to break them and why am I crying again?!.