I had in my heart and tongue the Name
of Allah when ever I had fears, troubles or depression
of any kind but from Jan 05 1995 when had lost my father and second brother in a car accident, it was the time I really felt am alone at age
of 33 to face all the challenges my father has left upon me to run and manage among other partners therefore had been investigating the Quran as to understanding every word
of it rather than to memorize it, have been did a lot
of reciting verses
of prayers begging God to look upon me and give me strength... am sure through such difficult times if I had no faith in God I would have perished and lost every thing long ago... Another thing my heart always gave me signs and my mind gave me logic
of what to believe
although have read many books abroad in my youth
of many beliefs
out of curiosity but could not belief in other than that God is one and Muhammed is his last prophet in all belief
of the Quran he brought upon me / us in all that it says... Should mention at times had experienced dreams seeing signs and warnings long in advance
of things going to happen A year or more before losing my father in a car accident I had seen him in my dream good bye wearing white
cloth and going to board a tourist ship all crew dressed in white uniform rolling a red carpet on front
of him and when was on the top
of the stairs weaver smiling good bye... seen in another dream how or wealth will be stolen and what I will hold... so many things like that..
Although I've had brief email communications with the owner
of bumGenius - I was a tester for the 1.0 version
of bumGenius - that was years ago and I've been quite
out of the
cloth diapering loop since then.
And
although my mother is a weaver and spins silky
cloths and wears flowing dresses, she is the one who gives me sailing textbooks and makes me study water safety and weather prediction and says things like «Yes, Sophie, I taught you to sail, but that doesn't mean I like the idea
of you being
out there alone on the water.