At that instant of time when I gave all up to him to do with me as he pleased, and was willing that God should rule over me at his
pleasure, redeeming love broke into my soul with repeated scriptures, with such power that my whole soul seemed to be melted down with love; the burden of
guilt and condemnation was gone, darkness was expelled, my heart humbled and filled with gratitude, and my whole soul, that was a few minutes ago groaning under mountains of death, and crying to an unknown God for help, was now filled with immortal love, soaring on the wings of faith, freed
from the chains of death and darkness, and crying out, My Lord and my God; thou art my rock and my fortress, my shield and my high tower, my life, my joy, my present and my everlasting portion.
And I say only «somewhat sadly» because the inability to properly review, aside
from causing some
guilt, has also allowed me to read for
pleasure and nothing else and remind me of the kind of reader I once was: voracious, relaxed, in the moment.