I assayed many ways to help to
quiet my conscience, but it would not
be; for the concupiscence and lust of my flesh did always return, so that I could not rest, but
was continually vexed with these thoughts: This or that sin thou hast committed: thou art infected with envy, with impatiency, and such other sins: therefore thou art entered into this holy order
in vain, and all thy good works
are unprofitable.