But if I say that I actually had Shreddies and a mug
of tea3 I start thinking about Coco - Pops and lemonade and Porridge and Dr Pepper and how I wasn't eating my breakfast in Egypt and there wasn't a rhinoceros in the room and Father wasn't wearing a diving suit and so on and even writing this makes me feel shaky and scared, like I do when I'm standing on the top
of a very
tall building and there are thousands
of houses and cars and people below me and my head is so full
of all these things that I'm afraid that I'm going to forget to stand up straight and hang onto the
rail and I'm going to fall over and be killed.