I sincerely feel sorry for the innocent spouses and children of the gamblers who exposed their families to this fully realized, but needless, nightmare, in the first place.
i know that most of the time i'm messing around on these boards, but i am
sincerely sorry to hear about your story... disillusionment — I know, can be a horrible thing and often is rooted in deep pain and disappointment... i have no idea what you must have gone through to get to this dark place but — even now, i'm praying that the God of all comforts would reveal Himself to you... in my dark days and moments I take comfort from Phil 1:6 and Romans 8:28... He has not walked away from you — no matter how you
feel, and will complete what He started in you.