Here there is a good summary
of thepain the disorder causes, which Hill has been trying to describe throughout the book, namely «the struggle to be faithful to the gospel's «terrible decree» that we must hold in check our
strongest urges and not engage in homosexual activity; the struggle to belong, to find the end
of loneliness; and the struggle with shame, with nagging
feelings of being constantly displeasing to God» (p. 127).