Here there is a good summary
of thepain the disorder causes, which Hill has been trying to describe throughout the book, namely «the struggle to be faithful to the gospel's «
terrible decree» that we must hold in check our strongest urges and not engage in homosexual activity; the struggle to belong, to find the end
of loneliness; and the struggle with shame, with nagging
feelings of being constantly displeasing to God» (p. 127).