I had
in my heart and tongue the Name
of Allah when ever I had fears, troubles or depression
of any kind but from Jan 05 1995 when had lost my father and second brother
in a
car accident, it was the time I really felt am alone at age
of 33 to face all the challenges my father has left upon me to run and manage among other partners therefore had been investigating the Quran as to understanding every
word of it rather than to memorize it, have been did a lot
of reciting verses
of prayers begging God to look upon me and give me strength... am sure through such difficult times if I had no faith
in God I would have perished and lost every thing long ago... Another thing my heart always gave me signs and my mind gave me logic
of what to believe although have read many books abroad
in my youth
of many beliefs out
of curiosity but could not belief
in other than that God is one and Muhammed is his last prophet
in all belief
of the Quran he brought upon me / us
in all that it says... Should mention at times had experienced dreams seeing signs and warnings long
in advance
of things going to happen A year or more before losing my father
in a
car accident I had seen him
in my dream good bye wearing white cloth and going to board a tourist ship all crew dressed
in white uniform rolling a red carpet on
front of him and when was on the top
of the stairs weaver smiling good bye... seen
in another dream how or wealth will be stolen and what I will hold... so many things like that..