I encourage you to please get help with these personal issues, and your depression, from a qualified therapist or doctor on staff at your new university. (sciencemag.org)
When I was a resident in internal medicine and a patient asked about relaxation techniques going into surgery, the other doctors on staff actually rolled their eyes. (parsleyhealth.com)
Our clinic is a certified Cat Friendly practice, and also has a Fear - Free Certified Doctor on staff. (vcahospitals.com)